I mean, it kinda sounds like you got hooked on the dopamine rush of social media and that you enjoy creative writing. I’d say all you need to do is channel that into more productive storytelling and you’ll be well on your way to being a good writer. I’m certain there’s creative writing communities out there that include roleplaying as part of it too. Creepypastas are all about that, albeit with a horror twist.
Maybe the throwaway nature made it safe to exercise your creative muscles so-to-speak ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I feel upset with how bad I want this for every instance. I know that change can be good but I want my old creature comforts of when I was 19 and learning about the front page of the internet, chuck testa and maymays