I get the feeling lol. The piano I use now my parents had bought me over 5 years ago to get me back to playing and I never really used it as much as I wanted to. Finally having the time and desire to do so.
But honestly if piano isn’t a sustainable hobby for you or anyone don’t bother. I used to build and tinker with computers as a hobby but between the costs and basically rolling RNG to have the desire to I stopped.
Can confirm I’m more efficient when collaborating with others when the bees are released.