I sometimes click in some random clip of current anime someone uploaded on YouTube, like I dunno attack on titan or chainsaw dude, but that’s it. They look cool but despite having the time to watch it I just don’t feel compelled to watch the whole show.
I guess it’s like the Netflix virus, that you keep scrolling and picking what you wanna watch and at the end you don’t watch anything and go back to sleep. Plus, maybe it’s the depression, but I don’t like when things end most of the time. I feel empty, it doesn’t happen with movies but with anime happens, especially when the main character is a dude. The usual end is that he beats the bad guy (or triumphs in life if the show isn’t about punching people) gets the hot anime girl, and ends… I guess since I can’t get any of that irl it hits me hard.
I never really got into it. I did enjoy cowboy bebop and have seen a couple ghibli films, but never went out of my way to watch anything else. I suppose it’s funny since I now live in Japan.
Also, you should work on yourself including therapy, probably, as someone who had issues with depression for years